"Sometimes writers travel and get jet-lag. The end."
--the
first version of this blog post
Life can be a very scattered and scattering thing. Over the
last couple of weeks, I have felt that scattering at work on me: I had all
these very important things to get done, but I was away from home, away from
the internet, and had seven days' worth of driving to soldier through, not to
mention abbeys to visit, cooking to do, gigantic windmills to walk up the hill to see--oh, did I mention I was on
vacation? It's all lovely, a vacation, and yet when I'm distracted, even if
the distraction is caused by wonderful things, I begin to feel a little
desperate around the edges.
I begin to worry about THE STORY. What's happening to THE
STORY?
We human beings like to take the randomness of the universe
and make some bit of it make sense. Writers specialize in turning random pieces
into a story, compressing the too-big spaces and messy ongoingness of time into
something smaller, more focused, enveloped in the comfortable walls of a beginning and an end.
(A photograph does the same thing; so does a stone vase; so
does a château: this picture
contains a ridiculous amount of human compression of the universe into art.)
contains a ridiculous amount of human compression of the universe into art.)
When we are distracted and scattered and unable to do the
work of making things make sense, it can feel like everything slips through our
fingers and always will.
OH MY GOODNESS HOW DO WE EVER GET ANYTHING DONE?
Really! If it's not one thing, it's another! When I had baby
twins, I crawled through every day without ever having a moment to focus. What
was happening to the story then? And of course we have an infinite number of
other distractions: guests, students, internets, having to walk the dog,
illnesses, soccer games, hot weather.
Dog distracted by turkeys |
It makes me think again about poor old Orpheus. It's really
a story about focus. Orpheus focused so hard he almost brought his beloved
Eurydice back from the land of the dead: he almost changed the whole story of
the world. And then he got distracted, lost his thread, checked his email,
forgot himself, turned around, looked to see whether Eurydice was still
following him up the path--and lost her.
(Then he was torn apart, which is about the extremest
version of distraction ever, and an unpleasant way to go.)
THE STORY is our Eurydice, the love we go bravely down into
the underworld to rescue. We have to focus like crazy to bring it back to the
surface. This is tough. Distractions nibble at us and sometimes tear us right
apart.
It occurs to me now that The
Wrinkled Crown, coming out this fall, is in some ways a retelling of the
Orpheus myth. Linny has to go to the ends of the world to save her best friend--she
has to be brave; she has to stay focused; she remakes the world and changes all
the stories.
We have to be brave. We have to stay focused. And we have to celebrate like crazy whenever THE STORY makes it all the way into the world.
We have to be brave. We have to stay focused. And we have to celebrate like crazy whenever THE STORY makes it all the way into the world.
What a wonderful post. (I love that you are reading Martha Brockenbrough's book while walking your distracted dog!)
ReplyDeleteIt's such a good book! Everyone should quickly read THE GAME OF LOVE AND DEATH! Martha was clearly focusing all the way through when she wrote that book . . . . . :)
DeleteTrying to focus to the end!!! Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYes, yes! Poor old O looked back just at the last moment--does definitely remind me of trying to finish a book.... You have to keep the faith that the story is still with you.
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